Tday AF came and all the hopes of having a baby just went down the drain again. I feel as if I have lost all the strength and hope to have a baby. Looks like I am not destined to have one. This was my second cycle of Clomid and I did IUI this time. Even then it did not work. Am not doing any more cycles of clomid. I have no faith left in God and I don't know what to do ......am sooooo depressed with life...god is not there atleast not for me....just wanted to share my feelings ....thx
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Hi all,
Tday AF came and all the hopes of having a baby just went down the drain again. I feel as if I have lost all the strength and hope to have a baby. Looks like I am not destined to have one. This was my second cycle of Clomid and I did IUI this time. Even then it did not work. Am not doing any more cycles of clomid. I have no faith left in God and I don't know what to do ......am sooooo depressed with life...god is not there atleast not for me....just wanted to share my feelings ....thx
Nikk's
Karishma replied. I can very well empathise with ur situation. Caus am also going thru it.
Try to cut out from this board, i know its very difficult and i am trying not to log on too often, but i do keep reading but dont go about gluing my life up on this site.
No doubt, all the people outta here are amazing and can understand wat each one of us is going thru.
Pls. understand dear, this is not the be all and end all of all situation. We have come to this world for many better things. Ok, We are not attended to at this moment of time.
But be sure, the ONE above us is watching each one of us, and he knows wats to be given to whom an when. So we have to just keep our eyes and ears open, Keep praying, Stay Positive and We will not even know as to when we have left this board.
So here's to a new beginning to all of us!!! Hoping and praying that each one of us is outta here asap.
Loads and loads of baby dust on all of us.
Lots of love.,
Karishma
kshama replied. hi annie,
hugs to u dear. U really had toughest phase of life. u deserve all happiness.
nice to know that with all pain u have u'r love baby:)
kshama
annie replied. sorry to read abt ur failed cycle. now don't get scared read my list.1st of all i hv a 6 1/2 mt old son now. but had to wait for 10yrs to get him!!! started ttc after 3rd yr of marriage, no success after 1 yr. fertyl & timed intercourse for 3 cycles-no success, changed doc 6 coutinuous cycles of iui with 100mg clomid no success. moved abroad, took a break for 1 yr. then tried iui wt clomid for 1more cycle=no success. took break for 1 more yr. then tried ivf in blr--2 cancled cycled for poor response, then got ivf+tranfer=failure. took break for 6 mts. 1more cycle of ivf= ectopic pg. break for 6 mts 1more failed ivf, next cycle with blastocyst transfer got pg & now hv my love & getting naughty son. so don't ever lose hope or blame God. even i had all the feelings u hv mentioned. its natural to feel that way. my suggestion is gather up all ur mental strength, courage & go ahead with it. when u r on continuous treatment sometimes body will respond to it. so don't give up, buck up girl & as they say \" take the bull by it horn\" . good luck to you my dear. lots of baby dust on you all.
strawberrypink replied. Hey Nikk's,
A little smile on the face plz....I know after reading all the responses from Kshama,SM n HFTejas...you would have felt much better.
Even I had my AF today,gosh even i was in ur mood for sometime,In your case u know atleast whatz happening but in mine i really donno dear....
Have hope i know we all will reach out there soon...
loads of babydust
kshama replied. hi nikki,
i understand what u r going through. I would suggest u to take a break if u r so depressed. doctors genearally ask u to try IUi for atleast 3 to 4 cycles. u take a break now. Just come out this baby making world and lead a normal life get u'r self busy in doing u'r hobbies . Read good books if u like reading. If u can work try working. Go out pamper u'rself and try to develop an attitude; that whener it has to happen it will surely happen. U'r right time is not yet come. it will Surely come. Some people on this world should have lot of patience in haing baby. we are one of those.
come out of this blue just enjoy what we have now, if we are sad we would make out surrounding too sad in turn not good for us. u will have baby just have to wait and rush for it.
i hope i have not eaten u'r head:))
cheer girl and have a nice time
kshama
S M replied. Hey Nikk,
I know that whatever we all say the pain is still going to remain.I am not going to ask you not to cry.
But never lose hope dear.
Every month that goes by you are that closer to getting and giving all of us the good news.
Just hang in there sweetie.
Have faith.I do have faith that all of us are going to have our babies.
My prayers with you and for all of us.
hopingfortejas replied. Nikk's ,
God is there and he is just waiting for the right time to bless all of us .... this was only your second clomid cycle ...i know there are amny couple who hit the jackpot in their first/second natural trial itself with no medics but try not to comapre yourself with them ...
compare yourself with me :
1st cycle - 100 mg clomid - no ovulation/no AF (had prometrium)
started with a new doc
2nd cycle -50 mg - no ovualtion/no AF (had prometrium)
3rd cycle -100 mg - no ovulation/no AF (had prometrium)
4th cycle - 150 mg - 2 follicles , no luck ...
3 months break
5th cycle - 50 mg - no ovulation
6th cycle - 100 mg - 1 follicle , no luck
went to India - 3 months break
7th cycle - 100 mg - 2 follicles - failed IUI
8th cycle - 100 mg - got PG ...
This is just my case, i am sure many of the aldies on this board have similiar stories to this and are not giving up .....
so dont lose hope, i am sure things will work for you ..
-P
2006-09-19
#1
Name: Karishma Subject: Nikks
I can very well empathise with ur situation. Caus am also going thru it.
Try to cut out from this board, i know its very difficult and i am trying not to log on too often, but i do keep reading but dont go about gluing my life up on this site.
No doubt, all the people outta here are amazing and can understand wat each one of us is going thru.
Pls. understand dear, this is not the be all and end all of all situation. We have come to this world for many better things. Ok, We are not attended to at this moment of time.
But be sure, the ONE above us is watching each one of us, and he knows wats to be given to whom an when. So we have to just keep our eyes and ears open, Keep praying, Stay Positive and We will not even know as to when we have left this board.
So here's to a new beginning to all of us!!! Hoping and praying that each one of us is outta here asap.
Loads and loads of baby dust on all of us.
Lots of love.,
Karishma
2006-09-19
#2
Name: Nikks Subject: Hey Karishma
Many thanks for your message it was nice to hear from you....I really feel so nice to read all the messages I got...it gave me lot of strength....I did try to keep myself busy by doing some courses in college and other stuff...and I also tried to not to come often on this site but I realised that if I wud not visit this site I wud not have been able to hold myself together till now....I do agree with you that I shud limit myself and I will try to do so...but reading all of you guys messages..give me immense hope....thanks a lot...take care and lots of baby dust to all of us here on this board.
Warm Regards
Nikk's
2006-09-18
#3
Name: kshama Subject: hi annie
hi annie,
hugs to u dear. U really had toughest phase of life. u deserve all happiness.
nice to know that with all pain u have u'r love baby:)
kshama
2006-09-18
#4
Name: annie Subject: thanks
hi kshama, thanks a lot for your wishes. the reason i wrote my story was that one shd not lose hope & get depressed. just hv faith in god & most of all yourself. lots of baby dusts on you all dear. ok, my little one got up. chow:-)
2006-09-18
#5
Name: annie Subject: hey nikks
sorry to read abt ur failed cycle. now don't get scared read my list.1st of all i hv a 6 1/2 mt old son now. but had to wait for 10yrs to get him!!! started ttc after 3rd yr of marriage, no success after 1 yr. fertyl & timed intercourse for 3 cycles-no success, changed doc 6 coutinuous cycles of iui with 100mg clomid no success. moved abroad, took a break for 1 yr. then tried iui wt clomid for 1more cycle=no success. took break for 1 more yr. then tried ivf in blr--2 cancled cycled for poor response, then got ivf+tranfer=failure. took break for 6 mts. 1more cycle of ivf= ectopic pg. break for 6 mts 1more failed ivf, next cycle with blastocyst transfer got pg & now hv my love & getting naughty son. so don't ever lose hope or blame God. even i had all the feelings u hv mentioned. its natural to feel that way. my suggestion is gather up all ur mental strength, courage & go ahead with it. when u r on continuous treatment sometimes body will respond to it. so don't give up, buck up girl & as they say \" take the bull by it horn\" . good luck to you my dear. lots of baby dust on you all.
2006-09-19
#6
Name: Nikks Subject: Hi Annie
Thanks for sending in a few words of strength to me....i must say one thing to you ...YOU ARE REALLY BRAVE...and hats off to you...you have given me immense strength to keep on going and just waiting for thgs to happen....thanks a million and my love to ur lil one...take care...
Warm Regards
Nikk's
2006-09-18
#7
Name: strawberrypink Subject: cheer up...
Hey Nikk's,
A little smile on the face plz....I know after reading all the responses from Kshama,SM n HFTejas...you would have felt much better.
Even I had my AF today,gosh even i was in ur mood for sometime,In your case u know atleast whatz happening but in mine i really donno dear....
Have hope i know we all will reach out there soon...
loads of babydust
2006-09-19
#8
Name: Nikks Subject: Hey Strawberry Pink!!
Nice to hear from you dear. beleive me when i say this that the fact that I know nothing is wrong with me is making me feel sick and not be able to do anythg abt it...tht is the reason i feel tht god is just punishing me for no rhyme or reason....i haven't done anythg bad in this world to deserve this and I know for sure that all of us here haven't either...so why doesn't god listen to us...why does he take time in giving us a baby and keeps giving happiness to people around us....my fight is with god and am fighting on behalf of all of us and I will make sure he listens to us this time for sure...god bless us all and may we have our babies in our arms sooooon...thanks for cheering me up :-)..take care .
Warm Regards
Nikk's
2006-09-18
#9
Name: kshama Subject: hi
hi nikki,
i understand what u r going through. I would suggest u to take a break if u r so depressed. doctors genearally ask u to try IUi for atleast 3 to 4 cycles. u take a break now. Just come out this baby making world and lead a normal life get u'r self busy in doing u'r hobbies . Read good books if u like reading. If u can work try working. Go out pamper u'rself and try to develop an attitude; that whener it has to happen it will surely happen. U'r right time is not yet come. it will Surely come. Some people on this world should have lot of patience in haing baby. we are one of those.
come out of this blue just enjoy what we have now, if we are sad we would make out surrounding too sad in turn not good for us. u will have baby just have to wait and rush for it.
i hope i have not eaten u'r head:))
cheer girl and have a nice time
kshama
2006-09-18
#10
Name: Nikks Subject: Hi Kshama
Thanks for your everloving and kind words..it gives me strength....yep u r rt that each one of us has a time set and it will happen only then how hard we try....that is the reason i decided not to do any more cycles...its a big mental trauma ....am trying my best to keep myself busy and hope i can get over this baby making thought...thanks again for ur wishes and I hope and pray that you too have a baby in your arms sooner than you expect...take care.
Warm Regards
Nikk's
2006-09-18
#11
Name: S M Subject: Hi Nikk!!!!!!!
Hey Nikk,
I know that whatever we all say the pain is still going to remain.I am not going to ask you not to cry.
But never lose hope dear.
Every month that goes by you are that closer to getting and giving all of us the good news.
Just hang in there sweetie.
Have faith.I do have faith that all of us are going to have our babies.
My prayers with you and for all of us.
2006-09-18
#12
Name: Nikks Subject: Hey S M
Nice to hear from you ...thanks for your sweet words and I am trying my best to stay positive..but sometimes just loose the strength....i agree with you that we are surely getting closer to the right time for us to get preg...I hope we all have the strength to reach there...my prayers are with you all too...hope u get preg soon...take care and thanks once again.
Warm Regards
Nikk's
2006-09-18
#13
Name: hopingfortejas Subject: dont lose hope .....
Nikk's ,
God is there and he is just waiting for the right time to bless all of us .... this was only your second clomid cycle ...i know there are amny couple who hit the jackpot in their first/second natural trial itself with no medics but try not to comapre yourself with them ...
compare yourself with me :
1st cycle - 100 mg clomid - no ovulation/no AF (had prometrium)
started with a new doc
2nd cycle -50 mg - no ovualtion/no AF (had prometrium)
3rd cycle -100 mg - no ovulation/no AF (had prometrium)
4th cycle - 150 mg - 2 follicles , no luck ...
3 months break
5th cycle - 50 mg - no ovulation
6th cycle - 100 mg - 1 follicle , no luck
went to India - 3 months break
7th cycle - 100 mg - 2 follicles - failed IUI
8th cycle - 100 mg - got PG ...
This is just my case, i am sure many of the aldies on this board have similiar stories to this and are not giving up .....
so dont lose hope, i am sure things will work for you ..
-P
2006-09-18
#14
Name: Nikks Subject: Hi Hopingfortejas!
It feels nice to hear from all of you wonderful people....gosh after comparing my cycle with you I have realised that you are right and I have lost hope too soon....I just hope i can conceieve naturally coz I am not going to try clomid anymore...so I am really scared whether it would happen or not...but after reading your cycle history I have learnt that I have to be strong just like you were and wait for my miracle to happen....thanks for your loving wishes...take care.
Warm Regards
Nikk's
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