Name: Sunshine
Hi love,
I know what you're going through, we all do... Just forget about everyone else and concentrate on yourself and your hubby. I suggest that after all these years of marriage you should demand support from your husband. Tell him this isn't working, and atleast to visit an infertility spe. with you.. I can so totally understand how frustrating his attitude of escapism can be. Believe me.
I was supposed to go for an IUI last month, but due to anon-cooperation movement started by my hubby (though I still love him) We haven't gone for one yet, somehow he's not ready to accept that we probably need to try something else.
Put your thoughts about your BIL and in-laws out of your mind, This is your Life pari, and God has given us only one, Don't you think it's too precious to waste on people who don't give a damn about you and your feelings?
Just relax, pray, be positive. The mom in all of us will have our babies soon..
You know, day before yesterday, I went to one lunch gathering at a cousin's place, where another cousin of mine hadn't come coz she's sick, but her hubby and 2 girls (one is 3 yrs and other is 2 months)I just took the kids from him and spent some time with them...It seemd like the most natural thing in the world the way I handled those kids, for a few minutes I fooled myself into thinking that these were my kids and not anyone else's.. But reality bites hard, I felt a little empty after wards... But I am keeping hope.
Someone reminded me a few days ago that HE is the most important thing, instead of complaning and feeling low and miserable, all we should do is talk to HIM, but prayer, just pray Pari, it works wonders.
Keep the Gayathri Mantra close to your heart, chant it whenever you feel low...
Take care,
And write soon.
Much love,
Sunshine