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Hi friends!

I have been a regular reader of this board but has generally refrained from writing my feelings. But this board gives reassurance to everybody who is ttc as you realize that you are not alone hoping for a baby!
I used to give solace to myself by reading your posts...but sooner or later everyone feels like venting out and so do I want to do today.
Although my story doesnt go far beyond 1 year of ttc...but along with ttc I have been through so much of mental stress..my husband lost 2 immediate family members(my SIL & FIL) in about 1.5 years and my husband & MIL are totally shattered by this loss...and that is the major reason why it becomes almost impossible for me to wait to give a good news after these 2 mishaps in the family! I had a MC in Dec 04 and all my blood reports have been normal. I have tried taking clomiphene citrate for about 6-7 cycles now...I do yoga everyday....I am also taking ayurvedic treatment by Swami Ramdev...and I have Galactorrhea..with normal prolactin levels. I dont know where the problem is..I had irregular periods all along, but they are normal now with Clomiphene Citrate!
My MIL is also looking forward to have some good news now and so do all the relatives. I dont blame anyone for this, they all mean well and my MIL is supportive and tells them that all is not in our hands..but I can see that desire on her face. My husband too is supportive and wants me to take things easy and not to overstress myself, but at times it becomes quite impossible.
Its time for me to take care of my husband and my MIL and not just think about my own frustration, but at times I just let go off and me & my husband end up fighting on petty issues.
Its a very difficult situation to explain as I am a career oriented person too and my career has anyway taken a backseat since last 2 years because family comes first. But gradually it is leading to more & more frustration..seems like nothing is working for me.
Thanks for your patient reading! I am feeling somewhat better now.

Cheers..NaX
Sunshine replied. Hi,
It's not nice to have more people on the same boat as me, but welcome aboard.
It's like a regular journe to hell and back every cycle for us... and it's depressing...But the good news is, it's not impossible. In fact, it's only a matter of time. We just have to be patient.
NaX, I have to say, stress will NOT help. You have to get rid of it. Why don't you get back to work. De-stress yourself in everyway you can. If not work, then something that appeals to you. Believe me, I can totally understand the kind of stress your family has gone through. Death of a loved one is highly traumatic. And any normal person undergoes the stress that occurs after it for a minimum of 18 months till u pur the pieces of your life back together. I would also suggest that u strengthen your relationship with your MIL. I'm sure you are making every effort to do this. Share with her your frustrations and feelings of helplessness. Let her mother you.
Please find every possible way to avoid stress and/ or de-stress yourself. B'coz, stress is a major major hindarance in conception.
I sure as hell know it's not easy... But all I can say is Trust GOD.
With love and lots of baby dust to you two.
- Sunshine Leo replied. Dear NaX,
I read ur posts, remember one thing that we all at this board are always there for u. I am ttc for the past 6 months and there are moments when coz frustration even I ended up fighting with my husband for small things. I had a great career in India. Now I am in the US for the past 6 months and doing nothing and it is 1 year that I am married. I have nothing to do and people asking me about the good news made me angry, frustrated many times. I then realized it is in God's hands and I must wait. I am a lot into reading books now, basically diverting myself and keeping myself active. Also I am remaining happy and positive. Remove stress from ur life, it is one basic reason for not conceiving. I am really not sure abt the medicines or medications you are taking, so cannot comment on it. Remain positive and smile, it will drive away ur problems. God is just testing u.
Take Care