Planning a Baby  Discussion Forum

Hi Archie and everybody,
i'am reglar reader of this board. But i'am writing for the firt time. From 2 years we have been trying with no luck. My depression state has reached the peak level now. No intrest in anything, feel sad at all the time. All my friends are pregnant now i'am left alone. So i don't talk to thme also now, if i talk i will be very sad again. I'am trying for an appointment at infertility clinic from past 3 months and i have not got appointment. That again has disturbed me. I stay in california. I feel like running away very very far, away from everything god please listen to me. why u r doing this to me.
too much of tension and can't talk to anybody that is why i'am writing here.
I really want to be pregnant. i can't say how much i'am desiring. with nobody in this country i'am left alone.
i have taken 3 cycles of clomid. with no sucess

I really undertsand everybody's problem who are trying for long.

All the best to everybody
AIAN replied. hi all,
I saw Bharathi's email and am a little concerned. (I had written on this mailing list a week or so ago, and we are about to move to California, USA)
1) Is it that difficult to get appointments with infertility clinics in CA?
2) How about insurance coverage for infertility treatment? Does it get covered? Can someone give me a cost idea?
3) (I am still hoping that this will happen, hence this question) - If i get pregnant and then move to CA (i.e i am already a month or so pregnant) will I face ANY difficulty in getting coverage under my husband's insurance?

Please guide me with your experience, as this is a big decisive factor for us.

thank you all.. all the best
AIAN
Sunshine replied. I can completely understand what u are saying... And thank you for your best wishes for us... I in turn wish the best for you..
However, Bharti, let me please share something with you..
It is very very easy to give in to depression, and lack of hope and question God.. It's much much harder to keep hope and faith. And unfortunately for you, you have to take the harder route. Don't question God, coz we are no one to ask him for answers. Just trust in Him and His decision. He has put us in this position to test how much we really mean it when we say we want to be parent. Look at the world around you..where parents abuse their own children, kill them, let them starve, don't teach them values, and are too busy with our jobs, our lives, ourselves to give time to our children... Would God want to send any of His little angels in a world like this?? Would you if you were in His place want to give your child to someone who is not able to take care of a child like it needs to be?? This is God's way of testing what we are made of.
And trust me, when your time comes, you will have one of God's most precious ones..
Keep that faith in mind. It keeps you going. Just pray, keep your mind & body healthy, show to God what you are made of... And allow Him to bless you.
Take care,
please keep in touch.
Keep writing whenever you feel low.. and keep writing when u see someone who is low...
Keep courage, faith, hope and love within yourself. God can't help but see those things... for these virtues pull Him to his children like magnets.
Best of luck,
Sunshine