Planning a Baby  Discussion Forum

hi sonia!
how r u? im fine here...well almost...as good as anyone in my situation.
read ur mail. i think u didnt check the mail tat i wrote just below it. actually i had sent two mails in the same mail at the same time. the last one was sent after reading ur mail to veena.
y do u feel hurt when ur husband worries bout his NRI status? husbands are like tat. once i asked my husband to come to the bedroom...he said his favourite tv prog was on air!!! and i told him no tv prog...nothing is more imp than my baby.
even yesterday i was telling him that if i get my menses, i wont freak out this time....but ya il feel sad that i failed once more. and u know wot he said? he said,\";cheer up! then u can have more coffee, work out more in the gym, u have one more month to relax and enjoy sex and we can even go out to another city!!\"; (i usually avoid these things for the fear/hope that i may be pregnant)....sonia, do u think any of the above things can make up for not having a baby? how i would love to forego all that...for the one thing that i want and need...
by the way, ur sister in law is ur hubby's sister or ur hubby's brother's wife? if she is the latter then i know exactly how u feel coz my family set up is also similar.
yesterday i went to a friend's house. there a lady had come with her 2 month old baby. ohh! she was so cute and so tender and so small. i didnt pick her up coz i was scared of hurting her but it felt good to see such a small baby. i cant stop thinking about her.
i stopped reading that book. though there are many things in tat book tat i must know...it really depresses me!
did u get a date fixed for the polyp and fibroid removal? dont worry, everything will be fine. u will soon find urself holding ur own baby...trust me!
lots of love,
pari. sonia replied. Hi pari....i too m lil better now.atleast not cried in last couple of days.
my sil is my hubbys younger brothers wife.let it be . right now im not in any mood to discuss her.
what a co incidence ..2 days back even i visited my friends baby who is just 2 months old now.soo cheewt. yes she was is so small and tender..very delicate. but when the baby woke up my friend just put her in my lap.so i did hold the baby. but i had also held her when i had visited her when she was born.when i was holding the baby i was praying to god to give me my own baby to hold. i hope he is listening up there.all my married friends have got babies pari except me. and im happy to see and hold their babies. we have discissed each ones pregnancy..and felt (by touching the tummy how it feels baby kicking)!!!!these r my friend frm college days and we r very close . they also keep asking me what is happening with me? ...they dont nag or taunt me at all but they r concerned...i bet tey will be very happy when they hear my news. but u know i havent told them abt low sperm count and i will go for testtube. i dont wnat to hurt my hubby......as it might hurt his ego...u know how fragile this topic is for men. so i just give some or theother reason and say that i still hav to consult good drs . even with close friends i cant discuss this openly ......wherin we otherwise talked abt everything frm our crushes , our love to our sex life, family problems etc after our marraiges. im just watching their children grow ( the eldest baby will now complete 2 years)while im waiting for mine to conceive.
pari...its good that u stoped reading the book......just not fair on yourself to do anything which depresses u more. once u know u r pregnant then u may read a good book on pregnancy.
wednesday my husband had called and i refused to talk to him.he was trying to sound as if nothing happened...maybe for him its no big deal. but right now for me that everything.i know he also wants a baby but i dont know how imp it is for man. i feel emotionally they r very different frm us.like among my parents too my mother is more worried than my father or amybe he doesnt show. men dont show what tey feel.
i still ahve to fix a date for operation but feb is sure. tahnks for ur assurance and wishing u the same i take ur leave
bye sonai