Hi everyone.... I didn't know whether tell you all or not. But I just really needed to share this. I just want all of you take very good care. I pray this never happens to any of you. Till a week and a half back i was a regular (rather not very regular, I just didn't feel like it and now I know why) at this board... but 15th oct changed everything.

I was at the hospital for my regular check up at 36 weeeks. On checking nad rechecking through USG my doctor told me that my baby was no more. He couldn't explain how it happened. I was shocked out my mind. I thought - Does he know what he is saying?
But it was what had happened. It was very unexpected. During my previous check-up everything was as gfine as it cud be.
The following 4 days were really traumatic. The doctors were trying to induce pain but I just weren't getting them. They didn't want to go in for a c-section keeping in mind my chances of pregnancy in future. They were all very caring and supportive. Finally my baby came out on the 19th. It was then that we saw that the umbilical cord had tightened around his neck twice. I saw him lying there peacefully. My beautiful child. Left us for the heavens above. I cudn't bring out the courage to hold him. He looked just like his father.
The doctors said what happened was just like a road accident. Such things happen very rarely.
The only sign I cud say i had got was less of movements. But everyone told me that it was due to less of space. And since fluid had filled up inside the baby flaoted around and I mistook them for movements.
We were told that incase in such a situation where the baby has loss of oxygen even for sometime and if he wud have survived there were high chances of the baby having cerebral palsy or any other disorder. So maybe taking our baby away was a way of God to save us and our child from a lifetime of misery. Ofcourse at times these seem to be just ways of consoling oneself but now the fact is that our baby is not with us anymore.
Thankfully doctors say we won't have any complications with our next baby and with this experience behind us we will take a world of care.

We have come out of all this much stronger, much closer to each other and God.

May God Bless everyone. And may such a devastating experience not occur with anyone at all.

Congratulations to all who have had their babies. And those are still expecting don't let this get you down. Just take care. Otherwise my baby was just fine. 2.6 kg at one month premature. Everything else about him was just perfect. And you must have got it by now- it was a boy. I had thought of calling him 'Arpan'. We have dedicated him to all the future children in the family. He will be up there looking out for all of them.

God Bless all of you. We are praying for the courage to get on with life.

Love to to all.

Deep Jiten replied. It's vary sad to know about it. But we can do only our best. Be brave. God will certainly give your another one - Arpan/Arpana. I'm to be father.

Love & best wishes to you and your family.

Regards

Jiten Tina replied. Dear Deep
I am from April board. I am feeling real sad after reading your message. I am in tears now. I will surely pray for you and your hubby.
May God bless you abundantly
Take care
Tina bhavya replied. Hi Deep,

I am from dec board and read ur message.I cant tell how bad i am feeling.i dont know what to say, i am in tears now.
I am very sorry for ur loss.
-bhavya Arshiya replied. I am really sorry hear this news, it's really shocking and has brought me into tears.
May God will give you all the courage and strength to bear for this tragedy.

Take care
Arshiya Avi replied. I am so sorry to hear the tragic news and I just cant seem to find words to express just how sorry I am...
All I can say is that the little angel will, like you said, will be up there looking out for all the children in your family..

Keep the faith Deep and be strong. Vindhya replied. Dear Deep,

I am in shock and tears, I cannot just express what I am feeling right now reading your message. Please have courage and strength. Angel Arpan will always be remembered and in my prayers.

Have faith in God,
Vindhya Priya replied. Deep,
I am shocked and saddened. Be brave for you and your family in this hour of tragedy.
Nothing will make sense now, but life must go on. Be positive.
Priya hetal replied. Oh God
Deep,
Heartly consolation

God gives you strongness to out from this. i even can`nt control my tears.now my tummy started to paining too much. it`s realy hard time for you. Actualy on friday one of my calique tell me that her how she loss her one year baby than yesterday my friend tell me that in toronto 9 years old baby kidnep from bedroom by breaking window so i was very shoked and thinking all this all the time. my hubby try to out of it and to encourage myself i started india parenting site and this shoked. this is very sad news. But do not think much more on this with in short period u must be a moms
take care Simmi replied. Deep, I am shocked and shattered to hear your terrible loss. I didn't have the courage to open the message, and kept hoping i was reading it wrong.

No words can make the pain go away but I do belive that God has his way of doing justice.

My very best friend had a similar experience full term and after a year and half, this March she had a bouncing baby boy. I am sure God will bless u with a baby real soon.

God bless you and remember we are all here for you to talk and share your feelings.
Love,
Simmi Ritu replied. Oh Deep, This is such a sad news. I couldn't hold my tears when I read the subject of your message.I am so shocked. May God give you the strength to bear this loss. As you said this is God's way of saving you and your baby from distress.

Don't really know what to say. But I am sure it wont be long before you will have a beautiful healthy baby in your arms.

May God bless you.

Take Care,

Love
Ritu