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I do not know where to start , I am very sad today and feeling like killing myself . I have everything a woman can desire caring husband beautiful kid still I am not happy. Though I am workaholic and do all the house hold and office related works yet main drawback about me is my temperament which is very volatile. My husband and I got married after lot of opposition from both the family. I agreed to marry my husband as I thought life will be comfortable with him but I was wrong he has some very bad habits like eating gutka, smoking, drinking etc. But main thing that I hate is , he is not at all physical . We sleep with each other once or twice in a year only. He never gifts anything to me, cuddles/hugs me or show any sign of love to me. Above all my in laws stay with us and they are very orthodox. I am not supposed to eat dinner in the same room my in laws are sitting, I can not even talk to my husband, I can not wear western dresses. I am from a very broadminded family my bhabhi wears skirts, jeans and even plays cards with my father. First time in my married life I had a fight with my in laws on a very trivial issue. Though my MIL keeps on nagging all the time but I keep mum all the time but and as usual my husband did not take my side as usual . But yesterday I do not know why I replied back which took everybody by surprise.
Sorry for my long story and tolerating me . Only genuine advise please.
What can I do , please suggest .
Do not misunderstand me.
Maya
sangini replied. Its tough to stay in this type of environment and but i think you should be more bold and ask your husbadn you said there was a lot of opposition that means its a love marriage means you can talk to your husband tell him how you feel and that you also had some dreams and explain and you some times take some steps to show your love see if things change and be bold with your inlaws don't encourage their stupid nagging...