Planning a Baby  Discussion Forum

hi all.i used to be a regular here but went into deep depression for 2-3 months.........married for 10 years and trying and trying for the baby is all i' ve done for all those years.........faced harsh comments,insensitive people........it got to me finally........i went into a shell and one day i realised that my getting depressed is making those people happy and giving them sadistic pleasure and just doing me and my husband harm..........so i' ve decided to put my life on track and start the process again with positive appraoch again .I' m going for ICSI this month and need all ur support..........please pray for me.
AND........for those who are in depression......ur depression only harms u and u alone....nobody else.......infact people who are responsible for depressing u,only get pleasure out of it............therefore.....DONT GIVE THEM THAT PLEASURE AND BE STRONG.....do it for urself and the poeple who love u...........ALL OF US WOULD BE WINNERS IN THE END..........i PROMISE EVERYONE THAT..take care all of u ........best wishes.lots of love and hugs. Sabina replied. Hi Rene,

I have been trying to conceive for the past 4 1/2 years without any luck. I went through 2 unsuccessful ICSI cycles in June and July 07.

I have been so depressed for the past 2 years and my failed ICSI treatment has increased my depression even further. I just came back two weeks ago from Mumbai to my home in the US. I now cry out loud all the time. I feel suicidal thinking about all that I went through. I have this morbid fear of taking infertility injections. Infertility treatment is not very pleasant. It has taken a toll on my life. Yes, we are all going through the same negative feelings. I often think about the insensitive remarks that my mother-in-law made while I was going through this treatment. People with children do not often understand the emotional pain that we suffer. They point out the void that is in our life.

My depression is getting worse and worse. I do not feel interested in anything now after coming back. I do not even feel like eating food. Yes, you are right in saying that depression only harms us and not all those people who derive pleasure from our suffering and pain.

I have full support from my husband, father and brother. I only ask God for the strength to overcome this depression. Yes, I want to be a winner and pray that you all will be happy as well and have healthy babies.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL. ruvi replied. Hi Rene,

I' ve joined this gp only few days before. I' m also sailing in the same boat. Married for more than eight years without a baby, I' m running in deep depression with nothing falling my way. Even I find myself contemplating suicide sometimes......phew!!!!!!!!! juss wanna share some thoughts with you with a hope that it' ll help relieving some tension out of my mind. I' m a god fearing human being but sometimes when I see somebdy pregnant or even hear that somebdy has had conception, I go into deep shell and start sulking for not able to perform a very natural function of reproduction. I even ask GOD what wrong I' ve done that I' m getting this emotional and physical punishment. My husband gives me all his support...even telling me that he doesnt want a baby...all he want is to see me happy and contended. But here I am....so sad n so depressed..that even when I realised that I' ve got few gr8 things in life...like a loving n caring hasband n Ma-in-law....I stop appreciating these real important things of life.
Thanx a lot for sharing your thoughts with us and listening me patiently. plz. tell me ' bout your experiences with ICSI. I wish you all success n all pleasures of parenthood. Do keep in touch....your experiences ' ll be very helpful to me.