OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

i never thought its going to be so difficult...hats off to the ladies who are sending their babies to play school already...

my husband and me had decided to wait till tintin's next birthday or may be more to put her in a play school...but...last week i heard my maid and baby giggling...and tintin was saying \";hatterekiii\";...thats what the maid was teaching her....its not really a bad word but one of those things a baby does look good speaking...e.g.. CHUP BE!!!!hahahaha

anyways, since then i knew i cudnt let tintin play with this stupid maid anymore...actually being with her drains me out completely and when i cant take it anymore i let her play with the maid...but since tina is learning so fast i cant do that anymore....

finally i enrolled her in a playschool from yesterday....and since then ive been crying like mad...tintin was fine the first day since she didnt know ill just leave her and go.....but today she knew it and kept clinging to my leg and saying chalo chalo na....they took her to the swimming pool and i sneaked out...

my husband is travelling again and im finding it difficult to cope with so many emotions....im happy that shes going out meeting more people etc....but its hearbreaking like hell....ive kept her so protected all this while and suddenly i dont know whats happening to her in those 4 hours shes away from me...

u wont believe but i checked her whole body to see if she got hurt somewhere...and asked her what she did....but dint understand what she said :-)

i cant seem to get hold of myself....may be its just PMS and ill be fine when its over...i hope so....and i hope tina will forgive me for ditching her everyday :-(

love
poonam Shivani replied.
First of all from ur mails i thoght u r very strong. Anyways u take it this way this time of crying Tintin is going to come anytime u put her in playschool . If not now then at2, 2 and half whenever u start. And its not only for ur daughter for all of us.

Last week I went to one playschool called\";The Nook\";. And she said she will allow me to sit there for a week or till baby gets adjusted. U r so anxious as this is first exp. for u. For Dhruv I am quite prepared and does not mind even if he cries.
Its matter of a week or two.