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hii all
my problem is very diffrent type
i feel that i have lots of negative thoughts in my mind .when ever i get up in the morning the first thing that i think is about my past ..which wasnt that good i think about some incidents and then feel bad the whole day
i have a very good present a loving family but my past just haunts me when ever i am alone
i am a very very emotional kind of person but my family (parents )never understood that i was diffrent from other kids
i was beaten by my mom and insulted so many times all this has effected me in some way
let me tell u one incidence :one day my dad was teaching me and gave me some assignment when i was in 7th but i was not fast so my dad said that if you are not going to finish it i will not send you to school as i was getting late for school so i finished it but was late so my dad went to office and my mom asked me to go to school (i had missed 1 hour )i refused saying that no i will not go i am late today the principal will punish me ..so she said no no body will punish dad has talked to principal ...but i said no i saw him going to office so she beat me so much with chappal that the marks of chappal got on my cheeks ..i went to school where all the students saw the marks and wondered what it was and then they said this is chappal marks ..i felt so humiliated and that very day the principal called me and punished me to stand in the ground for 1 hour for being late and not telling it to him
there are many such incidebnces which still haunts me
i love my parents and they also love me and miss me there are so many positive things also abut them but what do i do to get rid of these negative thoughts from my mind
i want to think about positive things but i just cannot

shayna replied. Talk this out ,you need an outlet.If you think talking this with your parents about this is not what you want right now in their lives,then out must talk it with your husband.
I was never beaten like how you were but yes beaten black and blue.
Everybody in our country is abused,the fact is some live with it and move on and some of them take time and are sensitive.I too am just like you dear friend ,emotional and sensitive.It took me a while to move on but with my hubby's support and strength I did move on.
You have to forgive them and especially yourself and move on.
When you cling to the past you forget to be happy about the present and it may take some effort on you part to move on,but whenever you start going into the past don't feel guilty about it just go with the flow,think,cry if you want to,don't fight it.
And one day when you are tired yourself you will let it go.
Just hang in there.You are going to be fine.