OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

i never thought its going to be so difficult...hats off to the ladies who are sending their babies to play school already...

my husband and me had decided to wait till tintin's next birthday or may be more to put her in a play school...but...last week i heard my maid and baby giggling...and tintin was saying \";hatterekiii\";...thats what the maid was teaching her....its not really a bad word but one of those things a baby does look good speaking...e.g.. CHUP BE!!!!hahahaha

anyways, since then i knew i cudnt let tintin play with this stupid maid anymore...actually being with her drains me out completely and when i cant take it anymore i let her play with the maid...but since tina is learning so fast i cant do that anymore....

finally i enrolled her in a playschool from yesterday....and since then ive been crying like mad...tintin was fine the first day since she didnt know ill just leave her and go.....but today she knew it and kept clinging to my leg and saying chalo chalo na....they took her to the swimming pool and i sneaked out...

my husband is travelling again and im finding it difficult to cope with so many emotions....im happy that shes going out meeting more people etc....but its hearbreaking like hell....ive kept her so protected all this while and suddenly i dont know whats happening to her in those 4 hours shes away from me...

u wont believe but i checked her whole body to see if she got hurt somewhere...and asked her what she did....but dint understand what she said :-)

i cant seem to get hold of myself....may be its just PMS and ill be fine when its over...i hope so....and i hope tina will forgive me for ditching her everyday :-(

love
poonam shweta replied. Hey poonam,
cheer up dear dont take all this so seriously i know its very tough to bear our little ones crying and specially when we become so helpless that cant do anything to stop them cry and u r not doing anything wrong by putting her in playschool...and u know what it dosent matter.....ki tum usse agle saal dalo ya is saal usko aur tumko adjust hone mein starting mein to definetly time lagega... yeah but may be next year tak vo jadaa samajdar ho jayee to she will start understanding what is school and moreover u can make her understand better that its a nice place where she will get to play with other kids and basically put in her mind that how itntersting place it is.
u know what it is very imp. that u prepare urself first otherwise u 'll keep getting this guilt feeling in ur mind and afterall we r mothers aur hum logon ne to aaj tak kabhi inko kisi ke pass choda nahi haina ...they have been with us all the time isliyee hamare liye itna tough hai.whenever i think of playschool...mein yahi soochti hoon ki kaise jaane dongi aadi ko i know he will also do the same usee itni jada aadat hai meri...anyways as of me i'm plannig to put him into play school only when he becomes big enough to tell me everthing clearly ki kya kya hota hai playscool mein...abhi vo kafi kuch batata hai fir bhi vahan jaane se pehle i think ke usse aur samajdar ho jana chahiyee taki agar use vahan koi prob. ho to he can let me know.As far as sikhne ka saval hai to since he has started talking tabhi se maine usko sikhana chalo kar diya.he knows about 10-15 poems,shapes,names of animals,alphabets,nos.kafi sari cheezein pata hai usekuch kuch to uski age se bhi jada hai....bas bachhon se mingle hone ke baat hai to vo to thik hai yaaar kar lega.(arre haan how can i forget usse himesh reshamiya ke sarre gane bhi aatein hai:))
u know what just listen to ur heart and do what u feel is good aur aisa to kuch nahi hai yaar ki vo agle saal join karege to vo kuch padai miss kar degi and if she gets adjusted now to aacha hi hai muje lagta hai pehle uski mamma ko prepare hona padega:).
aur haan us maid se to usko dur hi rakhna coz its her learning phase vaise vo \";chup be\"; sahi tha:)).
chal yaar dont worry and haan jayna u too.
love
shweta jayna replied. hi poonam,

i m undergoing the same thing.....its been almost a month that i leave virej at playschool for 2 hrs.
every morning when i dress him up he crys 'school nahi mama' but i still take him & while coming home from school he is still sobbing. i was so confused as to whether my decsion of sending him is right or not. we spent 10,000 for him so that he plays with frenz n enjoys, but i dont know whether i m sending him so that my money doesnt get wasted or that he will learn gradually....
infact he is the youngest in the class (nov end born) there r children who r almost 2 / 2.3,4,5. they tell their moms whats happening & they all tell me that virej was crying in the class. teacher says he doesnt cry in the class infact he enjoys playing with other kids... i dont know whom to trust.

infact i have heard him yelling for me at times when i quietly go behind the class to spy whats happeing.

but just today he went to school without crying. i was happy. but i dont know whether he is happy or what. i mean he shud not be thinking that \";my parents have no value of my tears but they r still sending me so its useless wasting my energy crying. they dont care abt me, they only do what they want etc....\";

i hope that i m not creating a block in his mind for us n for studies.
god bless us.
one other major thing is that he cannot tell me exactly whats happening. so i also check his body as to whether he is hurt or not....

lets have faith in god,
bye
jayna.
naveena replied. Hi
Howa r eu??
i know how u must be feeling abt leaving her at playschool bcs we are always focussing our attention on them since they are born.but one good thing is they like to be more among children at this age then with us,no matter they will fight or snatch for same toy.
I find it hard to manage and bear with her tantrums and we have paly school nearby but will not take her as she i sstill under 2 by sept,will have to try somewhere far
i am not feeling well from few days bcs of periods from 15 days and i have to meet the doctor for that.i see u online but u seem to be busy as usual.
And my efforts to lose weight also end up nowwhere as i am tired just taking care of her . i wish i had a maid here to take care when i am not well but here it;s not possible.
Anyway sorry i started venting out again it 's bcs of the periods i guess i am irritable and losing my temper on my Husband and Yashu too.Poor creatures they have to bear allthis .
Anyway take care
Luv to serena
naveena Sumana replied. Hello Poonam,
I can understand those feelings that go out for our little kiddos from all of us moms. I leave my daughter with a gujarathi aunty every day awhen i leave for work. She cries as soon as i leave her. I can hear her screams for amma till i take the elevator back. In my mind i ask the little one to forgive me. But i have seen that these days, she is more mingling, talkative, and i feel it is helping her a lot. Even in her sleep she knows whether she is at aunty's place or with her appa and amma. Don't worry the first few days will be tough for both of you, but will get better later on.
Sumana