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Name: UK

i m 27 yrs and have been married for 5 years and celebrating our wedding day next month. But i dont feel happy to celebrate wedding days, birthdays etc. Reason is nothing but a fear that i m becoming older. I have stopped talking to my in laws and relatives as whenever i see them, there only question is about my fertilty. I have stopped calling my friends and relatives also. Friends try to impress me my giving the phone to their own kids to sing a song for auntyor talk to aunty etc which is really irritating. Now i feel isolated and depressed.
Sometimes i feel that my hubby would have been happy if he has married someone else. He is very supportive and now he has also kept distance with his parents and relatives for me. I know he is also depressed, among his friends circle he is the only one without a child. We have been a nice couple all these years with good understanding and trust. But now i feel, high time he should look for another girl ( bcoz i feel i spoiling his life and happiness).
We are not financially wealthy to try many ivf' s etc, but doc adviced us for ivf AND I KNOW THE SUCCESS rate is just 50(bilateral tubal block).
Sometimes we even get angry with god. Throughout our lifetime we haven' t even hurt anyone or cheat a human being for living. We have tried beyond ourselfs to help someone.And y god is so hard on us? Y cant we be like the others happy with kids. There are soo many unfortunate kids left on the road and orphanage by parents.If god can give them y not us?
pored out all my depression. But still no answer!
Ladies let me know how you are handing the situation and relatives????????

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