dear all!!
i was just feeling sad and wanted to talk to someone who could understand...i know all of u will.
i had a miscarriage last year. but after that we didnt try for a baby until last month due to family probs. now we are trying. 1st month i didnt succeed and got my menses. this is the 2nd month. im still waiting to conceive.
my friends who conceived after me are proud moms today. and those who got married after me are preg today. it seems im left behind...i have been a total loser.
i never harmed anyone in my life, never thought bad bout anyone...still i was punished for no reason at all. wot had i done to deserve this?
my husband says i should forget about the unfortunate episode and look into the future. but the future also seems dark. am i really that pessimistic? has any of u been able to forget wot happend to u?
i really need to talk to someone. but cant share all this with my friends. they may pity me. no one who hasnt been thru that pain can understand my agony.
even if im not able to conceive, il adopt. tats ok. but i feel sad for the baby i once carried and then lost, the baby that would have been a shadow of my husband, the baby that would have been a symbol of our love...
thanks! it really helps to say wot u feel. even if u dont reply, im sure u heard me...and understood...
pari. reena replied. Pari- I went thro the same situation in Feb 04 when I had to have a D&C to kill my baby literally. I had never felt so depressed before even though I have been through a big brain tumor surgery 2 years back which had shattered me completely. I had thot that that was the biggest pain in my life and just when I had gotten over it, my forced miscarriage happened. I would not leave the house for 2 months and would cry at the drop of a hat. But now I am preggie again so I want to talk to you. I am in the US-where are you...send me your contact details..maybe I can help as I can totally feel yr pain. And mind you even if I have 10 kids I will never forget my first one as he/she was so precious to me....Love Reena Namita replied. ((((hugs)))) pari, I can feel your pain. I lost my lil one couple of weeks ago...its feels awful doesnt' it. Talking helps...if you ever need to vent, post here and we can share the grief and help each other thru this. Friend replied. I wish you all the best and hope you will be a proud mom one day.

May god give you the power to get thru this situation.

Take care sangeeta replied. Dear Pari
Whatever u have written is nothing different from what i want to write or say.Even i have gone through this so i can understand u better.Last month only the Doctor did my D and C as there was no deveplopment of the baby.I was very sad and very disturbed as it was my first pregnancy which meant alot to me and my husband.The day i came to know that i am pregnant i started communicating with my child. I wanted to make him feel how precious he is in our life. That time didn`t even thought will go through this. I had spotting problem which is said to be normal but in my case it took my life`s charm from me.
But i know sooner or later we all will conceive.U don`t take tension everything will be fine and allright.1 day we all friends trying for baby will be proud mothers just keep faith in God.He is there.He knows everything. He don`t like his childrens sad.He will sure bring happiness in our life. He has not given us baby now bcos he has something good reserved for us.Which he will give on right time. Don`t look at your past think about a lovely future.Here u only have to help u. Though we r here for each other to give suggestion to help but to tackle your emotions is in your hand. This part u shud help u. If u r mentally strong physically strong u will conceive soon. But if u keep on thinking negative cursing yourself it won`t do any good to u.Infact it will worse the condition. So from today just keep on thinking 1 day u also will be blessed with motherhood. Do the planning what u will do what u will wear when u will be pregnant.How u can teach good things to ur child. How busy u will be when the baby will be around.How your life will change etc That`s what i am doing and it really works.I know it will work in your case also. So please don`t feel depressed or sad. Have faith in God. Believe him. He is there for all of us. We r his childrens. He won`t keep us sad for long time. Think positive be positive.
If i have hurt u in any sense i am really very sorry pls forgive me
love and take care
sangeeta