Was reading your message about thinking of the second one and the adoption dream and I wasnot able to reply that day...

My dream like you all too had always been adopting a girl child. Though Shyam is not against it, he feels why adopting when we can have our own... He is open to adoption but thinks it is an option for parents who cannot give birth.

We being in India, adoption is not very easy as Paddoo said... not on the formalities part alone, but on the acceptance front too. It is not sufficient if the parents alone love the baby and treat her as their own. The whole family should do the same. Here, most of the people in our family will surely make nasty comments and will definitely not treat the child properly.

I was thinking of the above reason alone and letting go of my dream... but now to my shock, when I thought about it the other day I am not sure if I will be able to love her as much as I love Rishi... I donno how I can think like this, but I am not sure.

And like Paddoo, even I want to get the C-Sec out of my mind, so will want to try next time.... lets see.

So adoption is just out of question now and all the best Sush if you are serious about it.

Love to the kids.

Love,
Vani padma replied. Hi V,

Amma says that when you have a second babay you'll love it as much, 'coz by then you'll know what to look forward to, what to avoid, and gen stuff...

Let's see.

I havent left adoption dream yet. I talked to Sanj -He says No. :-(

paddoo