Hi everyone,

I have been reading for some time but only registered today. I like many of you went thru a loss too. I lost my first baby, a boy at 38 weeks. I went in for a regular check up and was told that there was no heartbeat and that my baby died. We conceived only 2 years after our marriage. I am from Malaysia and when i knew i was carrying a boy at 4 months, my hubby and i decided to set up the nursery, we painted it blue, got everything organised.
I had him via c-section, on 17/10/2003, he was 4.3kgs. My whole lot of relatives were there at the hospital, we all saw him, i touched his cheek, he was cold.
We had a funeral for him the next day, my hubby had to do it with my relatives as i was not allowed out of bed. I was so down, i did not know what the reason was.
I was told to try only after 6 months. Everyday was very difficult for me, even while writing this, i am crying. I prayed to God to bless my womb again, i used to put my hand on my tummy and ask God to bless us with a child again.
After 9 months, we got pregnant again, the scan showed 2 heartbeats...i was overjoyed but scared too. I developed gestational diabetes, i refused to take medications, so i controlled my diet and delivered my twins( a boy and a girl) at 35 weeks on 03/04/05.
To all you out there who has had a loss, we do not know what God has planned in our lives, but i sincerely believe that he has his own reasons. For me , i found support thru a group called angelbabies. My husband and mom were great support to me.
No parents should go thru this, we named our son Ashwin. On 17th Oct every year, we celebrate his birthday, now his bro and sis cut the cake for him. My hubby and i visit his grave often, though it hurts a lot, i believe that one day i will be with my Ashwin. Keep praying, god hears us and sees our every tear. He understands what we go thru.
I am sorry if i had said anything wrong or misused words.

Take care and love alwaz,
Carol

Shallet. replied. Hi Carol,

Nice to know that people do concieve once they lose their first baby. I too lost my first baby girl born on 29-04-07 and we named her Ria. She was with us the whole nine months and least did i realise that she wld never exist. I really dont know what plan god has for me.

Your article keeps me strong to have courage in God and move on.

Thanks.
Tryingtobepositive replied. Hi Carol,

I really appreciate that you shared your story with us.It gives us all hope and reminds us that God has a plan for all of us.

Thanks for the hope............



qrs replied. hi,

nice to read you message.Dont be sorry for sending your message there is no reason to be sorry.u have really made me feel happy by sending this message.Postive thinking is very important in life.

we all here need support,this board is helpful too.i know no one can take place of you lost child.this is one of the most painful experiences in life.

tough times dont last..but tough people do.maybe such instances make us stronger in life.

love siya replied. hi carols,

thanx for ur positive words ..what we all need is to have confidence in god ..just keep faith in him and ur fingure crossed..... i too lost my baby boy in feb this year due to meuconium aspiration syndrome i was told to wait for 5 months then go for ttc...

love siya abcd replied. hi Carol,

i was so touched to read your message.its good that u posted here.this will encourage and give confidence to women who are trying to concieve after a loss.

im so happy that u r blessed with 2 cute babies.i know Carol god is there,i know that he knows whats best for us....but sometimes i dont understand HOW HE CHOOSES PEOPLE FOR HAPPINESS AND FOR SADNESS.i dont know whether u r understanding what i mean..but i felt very nice to read your post specially in this section.there are very few women who get pregnent again after miscarriage encourage other women and inspire them that all will be finenext time.thanks for support.