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me and my long-term partner had such a strong relationship - we got through some pretty tough times and throughout it all, we never left eacho other's side. this was a real indication of our forever bound love and i knew i wouldnt want to be with anyone but him!
unfortunately, his feelings towards me began to deteriorate. it all started after we came back from a party held by his company - it was a well organised evening where i got acquainted with many of his colleagues and their partners. at the start of it all, i realised how pretty the wives of my husband's colleagues were. though many of them were of a 'white' nationality - the asians looked spectacular. i had never seen such beatiful asian women in my life. they had fair and glowing skin with dimples.. nice coloured eyes.. their hair was done so neatly with tumbling curls or poker-straight styles. although i felt slightly envious, i didnt let it ruin my night.. so made conversation with many of them, passing compliments which were no sooner reciprocated.
it was a great evening and i got to know so many people. after that night, my partner grew away from me. he wouldnt sleep in the same bed as me nor eat on the same table. i would cry at night and blame myself for not making me happy - but i didnt realise what i did wrong.
after a fortnight he told me that he didnt think i was beautiful nomore. i was baffled. until had met him, i didnt looktwice at my looks - probably because he appreciated me the way i was and was always complimenting on my skin and 'sexy' curvy figure. anyhow, he said he thought i wasnt fair enough and that i should be lighter.
in the past, i had used fairness creams and applied herbal remedies to my face to make it fair. i was not dark at the time - nor am i. i think it would be classifed as a 'sanwali' shade by most on this board.
after a huge row, my partner said he would not be comfortable withe me until i was fair. i questioned him further - only to find out that his observation on the 'beautiful' women at the party triggered him to enfornce me to become fair. he had obviously really liked their colour as they looked nearly 'white' - wheras you could tell i was an asian.
i ignored his threats.. but the climax was unbearable! he would come home late at night.. never eat my dinners nor sleep with me. i cried myself to sleep many times. i began to hate my looks and who i was. i convinced my self i was down right ugly and didnt leave the house for days on end. in fear of my partner having an affir with another woman - i crawled back to him and said i was sorry. i had no choice. he said everything would be fine - so long as i apply mistures of ALL fairness creams available on the market. i was slightly reluctant as i knew they would behold side-effects - but i agreed with everything he said and ensured him i would purchase them the next day.
forcing myself to leave the house, i went to my local chemists and bought at least 3-4. after arriving home i wept and sobbed because i was scared of applying them - i decided id do it at night.
when he came home, he observed them and said everything would be OK. i hated the fact that in order for him to love me i had to be fair. but he kept repeating that he loved me but just wanted me to be fair. i didnt believe him. but he made it upto me by resuming his usual relationship with me. no sooner were we sleeping in the same bed and sharing eachothers thoughts and feelings.
3 months down the line - ive come to the conclusion of whether or not i should leave him. does he love me for who i am? thankfully, i didnt apply ALL fairness creams on my face.. just a dot of Fair & Lovely to please him and make the result visible.
ohh.. im so depressed. he keeps saying he loves me but how do i know hes not having an affair with one of his fair colleagues?
i dunno wot to doo.. i love him.. but can that love be returned?
Love does not mean dark or fair
no
yes but it will be slower
not real love
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