Name: Vani

Dearest Reena,

Very good to have you back. I had been missing you a lot, but I knew that you were on vacation, and hence did not write. So your vacation must have been a good change for you. Sad to know that you were all alone for 4 days, but atleast you had 3 days to spend with Puneet.

I totally agree with you, life is not the same... Here I have an option to leave Rishi to my mom and go out with Shyam but I will become so restless thinking of Rishi and my mom too who is all alone with him, so I go out like that only if there is a need.

This Friday my mom is leaving and my in-laws are coming on Monday. They will be here for 10 or more days after which my parents will come. I feel sad for my mom too. She is missing my father who cannot come due to some work there and July 4th was her wedding day and she fell down early in the morning. She is better today.

I am compelling her to go on Friday to get that single day (Saturday) alone with Shyam. I hope u understand what I say. Its been very very long time since we spent some time - just the two of us. You won't believe, except on our anniversary, we haven't even been sleeping alone at nights. Mom and Rishi sleep in the same room. In fact I insist since I cannot sleep without Rishi since he gets up so many times at night and I don't want my mom to sleep alone.
When my in-laws come, we will have no privacy at all. I told Shyam that its ok if I have to take care of Rishi all alone, but I want atleast a day with him. Life's become like that. I hope my SIL or any of our friends don't come that day so that we can be alone.

Even I feel very depressed some time and when Rishi does not eat properly I think its my mistake and I cry. You don't feel bad that you have not started solids. Its best to give BM for 6 months. I know my aunt and my SIL did that. What to do, since I had to work, and Rishi was not gaining weight, I had to give him solids. So you don't worry, instead, be happy that u r able to feed him and he is gaining weight too.

If you had missed some posts, I have uploaded some snaps in Rishi's album. I will write more later.

I wanted to write a consoling mail to you, but I guess I have vented out more. Very grateful for friends anyway.

Kisses to Rishu.

Lots of love,
Vani

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