Hey Deep,
I sent a mail sometime back on your hotmail a/c, don't know if u got it or not? Neways, how're u doing these days?
I think u got me wrong when i sd. my due date is nearing....it actually meant the date i had to deliver on initially...but since i had to terminate my pregnancy in july end this year, i'm not pregnant ne longer now. How's ur life going on? What do u do in bharatpur? R u also working there? I stay w'h my hubby in New York & started working from september this year, bcoz staying at home all alone after losing my twins was making me highly depressed & the doc advised that i needed to get busy asap.
Please do keep in touch & if you'd like to u can share ur thoughts & feelings w'h me, coz i'm undergoing the same pain myself & sometimes sharing is helpful.
Take care Then. deep replied. sorry for not replyin earlier... also sorry to have mistook you.... i just didn't relate the due date thing... i felt miserable on my due date too...

i just have been a lazy sap... i meant to write to u but just didn't get around to doing it... its good that u r working... i'm not but do plan to start soon.. but bharatpur being such a small place i don't see too many opputunities except maybe teach in a school... i'm an architect by profession so teaching is not my kind of work... lets see how things go... what do u work as??
My brother and bhabi live in Raliegh, NC.
You know just yesterday I was surfing and came upon these sites that ppl have made for their lost children. It really touched our hearts when we saw them. My husband and I also cried a lot remembering our son. Sometimes nothing makes sense. And we want the impossible. I feel like crying out \";I want my baby back!!\";.. but who wud listen....

There is just no use. I guess till the time we concieve next and also till we have our next baby all these feelings of insecurity are going to keep cropping up all the time.

The other day I was at a pedriatician's I saw a mother worrying about her 6-month old baby getting an injection. I just wanted to burst out crying thinking of my child. I keep remembering all the lil' things we bought for him. Thannkfully there not here with me but at my mom's place. I keep picturing him in all the lil' clothes. But I know I'm not really going to see him actually in them.
You know talking about it and crying it out really helps. It not good to supress your thoughts.
I can go on and on about all this. I'll forward some things I copied from those webpages for the children. Its really touches the heart.
Bye for now