Hi all -

I wanted to share my story with you all - I know this is a time of deep grief and loss for many of you, but here is my story - hopefully it will give you all hope and faith. I am a member of the June 2004 and have not posted in a long time - I have a daughter who is now three years old. This is my story...

When my daughter turned 2, we decided it was time for another child. I never thought I would have any fertility issues, as our dear daughter was conceived quickly. After almost 7 months of trying and at our wits end - my husband and I decided to go on vacation. My hubbie and I went to Lake Tahoe in February and had a wonderful time. Shortly thereafter, I found out I was pregnant. It was wonderful news...my due date was fell right on Diwali...

About 7 weeks into the pregnancy, I started bleeding - I had a very long, drawn out miscarriage. The doctor told me the baby was still viable, and told me to go on bedrest. After a week' s time - I knew it was over. I went back to the doctor and he confirmed it. He told me a D&C was not a good option because it would make it harder to conceive subsequently. I was totally devesated as I continued to bleed for another 2 weeks. At the end of all this, I got labor pains and essentially went into labor - I was very confused as to what was going on b/c the doc said I had passed most of the pregnancy. I ended up in the ER and then delivered the remainder of the pregnancy. It was very emotional - I grieved a great deal for this loss after trying for so long for the baby. I was completely down and out.

After the miscarriage - I decided to get a new job, new clothes, new haircut :) I interviewed for a new position but didn' t hear back from them for awhile. My husband and I were intimate once after the miscarriage in an effort to re-connect - he was so sad that I was so sad...

I ended up getting a call from the place I interviewed at the end of April - they were offering me a job. That night, I just \" felt\" pregnant again - I thought I was crazy as I never even had a period after the miscarriage -but I just \" felt\" something was there again after feeling so empty. I took a test and turned up pregnant again without even a cycle in between since the loss! It took us 7 months to conceive the one I lost, I thought there was no way we could be pregnant so quickly! It could have only been the one time that we conceived - I was overjoyed - but then had so many doubts about the new job.

I called the new employer and said I couldn' t take the job as I just found out I was pregnant. He called me back an hour later and said he' d offer me a fully paid maternity leave! I couldn' t resist - two blessings at once :)

I' m now 19 weeks pregnant and it looks like we are having another girl! The nausea and vomitting has been unbelievable with this pregnancy - I had to take Zofran to get through the vomitting but it is worth it. God has blessed me and helped me to overcome my grief. I still sometimes cry for that baby that I lost and pray every night for it - but I am also filled with joy and anticipation for the little one on the way.

I pray for each and every one of you and your losses. If you want to reply or have questions, please post to this message. I couldn' t have made it without the support of friends and family.

With love and prayers,
Chetna
Deepti replied. Dear Chetna,

Read ur touching story & it' s heartening to know that ur r having a healthy pregnancy now. keep those spirits up! blessings to ur little ones.

take care,
deepti Tryingtobepositive replied. Hi! Chetna,

Thanks a lot for posting your story.I really appreciate it.All of us here could definitely use some encouragement.Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy.

Take care,

Ms.Positive