We are married for the past 15 years and enjoying our family, social and sex life. We have been having good sex life and are quite active. During sex we fantasize about 2 couples, one is a friend of my husband & his wife and the other one is my cousin sister & her husband and enjoy a lot.
I have stopped my periods for the last one year and since then my sex desire has increased very high. I always think about having sex and think a lot about these two men whom we have been fantasizing since long. I really find it difficult to control myself when I face any of them though I know this is not right. I still enjoy sex with my husband.
It was about 3 months back, my husband was out for 3-4 days on a business tour and I was alone at home. My husband's friend came to our place. His wife also had gone out for 2-3 days to visit some relatives. I asked him to join for dinner which he agreed to. I was really getting excited. After the dinner I used all tricks and made him agree to stay for the night. That night I had multiple rounds of sex with him, first time in my life with anyone other than my husband. Next day I had no guilty feeling and insisted him to spend this night also with me. I enjoyed these 2 nights. But my desire has further gone up and think about having same things repeated with my cousin's husband also again and again.
I know this is not right but do not know how to handle this.