Name: Swathi Gopal
Hi guys, we started to thirumala on 21st noon and reached in the night. I had my last head bath in the night and seen my hair well in the mirror, cos I am gonna lose em in the morning :( I din get sleep whole night cos i was so scared and shy.
We woke up early in the morning and reached tonsure hall by 6 30. My father bought 2 tickets and we went into the hall. My heart beat increased as the time neared. There was some crowd even it was early in the morning. I just checked out the hall, I couldn' t find any girl of my age tonsuring. Then I found few little girls and 1 in early twentys standing for tonsure, that gave me some courage. We reached a barber and my mom asked me to sit, I refused and asked my dad to go first. My dad gave blade and ticket to barber and sat down. He watered his hair fully and started from middle. In like 4 mins my dad was completely bald and then another 4 mins to shave beard and moustache. I couldn' t recognise my dad, it was the first time I saw him head shaved.
He then stood up and mom gave him towel to wipe off water and hairs on face.
Then my turn came, my mom asked me to sit. The barber asked mottai or cuts. My mom said mottai and handed the blade. I was completely nervous and my heart was beating like anything, just felt like crying and I controlled it thinking its all for good. The barber wet my hair completely and the water was dripping from my head over my face and dress. He split my hair into 2 and tied 2 knots. Again he slightly sprinkled some water and asked me to think of God. Then I could feel he started from the middle. I could see hair falling down and cool air touched my head. Just in a matter of time he shaved 1 side and put a big hair tuft aside. In the meantime he had a chat with nearby barber and my mom came to me and asked how did I feel. Before starting i was nervous but after started I seemed to enjoy it i said. She was happy hearing that. Then he continued and shaved the other side too in few mins. It was pretty fast. He then wiped the hair on my face and said its over. I got up and smiled at my mom :) She said I looked so beautiful. Then again i checked the hall I could c couple of other girls of my age standing, I thought i' d be off courage to them since i finished :( My mother wiped my face and head with towel. Then i asked for scarf to cover, but we forgot to bring it. Then i felt shy and got my mom' s dhupatta and covered my head fully.
Then we went to room. I rushed to c my face in mirror. OMG!!! who is this new girl. I couldn' t recognise myself. I looked very ugly without my hair :( My mom convince me and said its ok and it all for God.I took bath and wore new dress. My mom applied chandan on my head and my dad' s head. After applying chandan I thought I looked better. Then my mom asked me to come to temple without scarf. First I said no, then when I went out it wasn' t weird to go around bald there, no one cares. So just like Radha adviced i removed my scarf and my mom was very happy. I din wear any scarf or cap till I was there.
We went to temple and started home by evening and reached in the night. Like Radha said it was one of the beautiful experience in life. I will never forget it. Thanks to Radha, Preeti, Kumar and all who gave me courage in this forum.