Extra-marital Affairs:Suffering every min from extra marital affair
I myself is from a very good family. I am married 8 years back to a very very good human being. It was love marriage i was loving him for more than 5 years. in fact he waiting for me to finish my degree education and later sooner i finished my degree we got married.
Meanwhile sooner i completed my degree i have joined a company where i got a good enviornment. as days goes myself and my boss(even now he is unmarried) got attracted each other and i have fallen in love with him deeply. Even he started loving me deeply, he will fulfill whatever i wish for. Right from day one he never hurted me or behaved in a way which hurts me. But when i went for my first baby delivery during that 2 months gap, he got attracted to one more female who was working in our company, sooner i rejoined for work i came to know and i started objecting for the same. It was not with the intension of selfishness but with the intension that, the girl choosen by him as a life partner was not good for him. In fact even now i myself seeing good girls for him to get married, i want him to actually marry and be happy. But since i started objecting his interaction with that girl, he started showing arrogance and he started treating me very rudely, now from past one and half year he just do not like to talk to me, do not like to mesg me, do not like me to talk on her at all. But at the same time, he has promised me that he is not going to marry her and he is already started searching for a new girl, but the interaction with that girl is still not stopped. ANd the painest part is the girl with whom he is interacting is my subordinate as am the CEO of the company and she is supposed to report to me. But since my boss is so close to her, she directly reports him and even my boss never ask her to listen to me or give respect to me,.even though she is next to me, she never respect me, she never report to me, and she always shows her arrogance behaviour if question abt anything, and my so called loved boss will become angry on me only if i report against her for me to shut my mouth and keep quiet.
now actual problem is, due to this problem i had left job and was in home, but in some or the other way he make sure am back to job and neither he is ready to leave me nor he is ready to leave her and do as per my expectation. But it is sure that he is not going to marry her, since i feel his marriage with somebody else is already fixed.
Now am totally confused in understanding him, he always says that he never cheat me and he will be there with me life time and if required for my satisfaction he will also marry me. But due to that girl matter i have lost my complete trust,love,affection on him and i have started crying daily now for cheating my husband for which i am suffering evey moment. In fact i too love my husband a lot because he is very good kind, soft spoken person. Now am confused how to handle this. Can i trust him and continue in the same job because i need to stay with him? or shall i leave job and go somewhere else forget everything and start a new life with my family?? or should i do something else....I am a very intelligent and very much enthusiastic person by nature, but due to this matter i am becoming more and more narrow minded and mild. Can somebody suggest me what i need to do???Plz help me or else i dont know what will happen to me...